I can honestly say my babies are my life. I’d do anything
for them, they’re my priority. I go without many things so my kitties can have
what they need to be happy and healthy. I will admit that when I first took
them in, it was no walk in the park. I had lost Alex in a very traumatic way
and had convinced myself I would never again give my heart to another fur
child. It was though, extremely difficult. I soon found out it was too quiet
and too lonely. Although I did enjoy not having to clean so much and I was able
to have things like plants again…it just wasn’t the same.
But taking in one new baby, never mind two, was a shock
to my grieving process and admittedly it took a lot for me to let go of the
anger, resentment and pain of losing my soul kitty. I know I felt pushed by a
lot of people to get another fur child. And even though it all worked out in
the end, at the time, I just wasn’t ready. But I wouldn’t trade this time with
my two scampers for anything.
Finnegan came to me first and he was a handful! He
climbed my curtains and wanted my attention 24/7, which is why I got Lacey.
Both of them fell in love with each other immediately. However, it took me a
little time to reach that point with them, I hadn’t finished grieving yet. But
they tugged and tugged on my heartstrings until I couldn’t resist anymore and I
gave in. I let my heart open to its full capacity and realized that Alex had
sent them to me.
The shock of losing Alex the way I did though scared me
to pieces. I realized there was always the chance of one of these two getting
sick. After all, there are never any guarantees and eventually they will get
old and get sick, and yes, die of something. It took me a good year to relax
and just enjoy them. I was so scared they would develop some life threatening
illness like Alex had.
Losing a fur child is without a doubt one of the
hardest things we as pet lovers will ever go through. It can really mess us up!
For me, I was thrust back into momma hood very quickly but it turned out to be
just what I needed. I don’t think I could have done my website had I not
learned to laugh again and have something to look forward to everyday. But
everyone is different and we all know when it’s time to be alone and heal, or
when it’s time to open our arms and hearts again.
If you’re in that position right now and aren’t sure
what to do…don’t rush into anything because others are telling you to. Do it
because you’re ready, you feel the situation is right and/or because you’ve fallen
in love with the right little furry face.
